Introducing me - my walk, my why

Hey beautiful souls! Welcome to my page. I am so excited to have you all here with me.

So, my name is Ruvimbo (some know me as Ruvi), and I am 20 years old from the UK. I’m a first-year social work student, and I aspire to glorify God in that career and in everything else He calls me to do.

My journey with Christ started when I was 16 during COVID. When you’re a teenager, mental health and struggles with identity tend to become a real thing, and I was not exempt from this. I struggled terribly with people-pleasing and insecurity—to the point where I compromised certain aspects of myself (my personality, my boundaries, etc). I felt like I had to be a certain way or do certain things to be accepted by those around me, and I truly believed that I wasn’t worthy of being loved as I was. Can anyone else relate?

Now, I was raised in a Christian household. I knew most of the Bible stories, I knew the Lord’s Prayer, and I knew a few verses. But would I say I really gave Jesus a chance? NOPE. It was just one of those things that were in the back of my mind, but I never truly considered—until one day during lockdown. I was sitting on my bed, scrolling through TikTok (very productive of me, I know), and I began to come across Christian TikToks on my FYP. At first, I scrolled past because, quite honestly, I didn’t want to hear it. But eventually, I stayed and listened to a few. Not knowing it at the time, seeds were planted in my heart. One day, I made the conscious decision to give Jesus a try.

It started off with me saying little prayers every night before I went to sleep. Then I would ask my dad questions about God. And then—I bought my first Bible! In each of these stages, I began to learn something new about my newfound faith, and I started to find a sense of serenity in God.

I will say though, it wasn’t easy to fully let Jesus into my heart. There were times (and still are times—because I’m not perfect by any means) where, when struggle came, when I sinned, or when I made a mistake, I ran from God. But I’ve learned this: instead of running from Him, run to Him.

“The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.” — Proverbs 18:10 (NKJV)

One of the reasons I struggled to let Jesus in was because I was practicing a routine instead of actually getting to know who He was. I’d read a chapter of my Bible a day, say a prayer, and that was it. It was like checking a box on a to-do list. I was so focused on keeping a “picture-perfect image” that I never really allowed God to change me from the inside and define me—so He couldn’t use me.

But when I finally began to truly know Jesus, I started to understand how He sees me—and that’s when my perspective started to shift. Getting to know who Jesus is and what He did for you is so fundamental on this walk. It allows you to trust Him with your life and your identity.

I created this blog because I know there are girls around my age—maybe older, maybe younger—who struggle with their worth and identity in Christ. You may have placed your worth in your friends, in boys, in jobs, or even in academic achievements. And I just want to say: those things are temporary and will never make you feel as whole as Jesus does.

I know you’re thinking, “I hear this alllll the time.”

But have you ever considered that it’s because it’s the truth?

Look at what the Lord says about you:

·         You are a conqueror (Romans 8:37)

·         You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)

·         You are CHOSEN (1 Peter 2:9)

And that’s just a glimpse of how God sees you.

I’m not going to sit here and act like I’m 100% there with finding my identity in Christ. But what I do know is that I’m nowhere near where I once was, and I’m still growing. And you’re not doing this alone—we’re doing this together, with the Lord.

I pray that God shows us His love, grace, and kindness—and not only that He shows us, but that we let Him truly into our hearts.

Remember, you are CHOSEN.

I love you all, but know—God loves you more.

With love,

Ruvi